i want to stay

Wrist watch me

I'm screaming for attention with dirty skin and my socks are sticking to my feet. I'm glued here in silence in a picture postcard pinned to the inside of your eyelids.

Un-frame me!

Un-frame me!

Un-frame me!

That image of me is much more satisfying, much less of the bitter sting. It leaves no sour taste.

loneliness is next to loneliness

Let me sleep net to your body with the lights on so the world knows I'm not alone. Then draw the shades because I know that you're ashamed of what you've done...

"With him?!"

"You did!?"

"Thats all?!"

you're all the same.

This life is a traveling act, an illusion of a boy with both hands gripping a love stained suicide pact.

RIP

I've been at this funeral for weeks, digging up your body and begging the corpse to breath.

the boy who cried WOOF

My guilty pleasure is writing up suicide notes and mailing them to my family and friends. Just to see the reaction that I get. Which one hits the hardest like a brick to the chest? Which one gets the next best girl to take off her dress? Which one never gets sent but carved instead inside a heart in oak? Signed sincerely "YOU&ME"

knock turnal E mission

All this powers gone to my head

but I still catch myself waking up from wet dreams where you are wishing I was dead.

Its all in my head

"Its all in your head." she said

Its all in my head

Put a pillow on the train tracks

Maybe that will be my bed

sleep deprivation

I've got a sick sick thing for that girl

it busts me up more and more every day

So ill save face by throwing punches at the world

I'll hurt myself a thousand times if it means you'll shed no more tears

I'll take it on the chin

baby its my cross to bear

cause I've been beat up

and walked on

but I've done my share

baby its my cross to bare

so don't miss me

glad you didn't kiss me

cause I'm just skinned knees

and holes in my blue jeans

it'll make things harder

so baby dont bother,

wasting all your sweet tears

on this sick mistake

and red hot nightmares

sweetheart its my cross to bare

LOVESONG

Hold me close so you can't feel the sting.

Grit your teeth through the pain so you don't feel a thing.

He's no good but you're scared of the change.

He saids' and she saids' are scars on your skin.

So steal one last slow dance and save it for me

cause tomorrow is a new day with the same old routine.

I can't take this feeling, this moment is to long.

I can't keep re-learning this hopeless love song.

Hold on to me just as long as you can

Shake off the cold and just give me your hand

I'm leaving tomorrow, and this aint going to last

but tonight is right now and i can't feel a thing

so I'll give you my best and you'll take what you will

we'll leave out the back door and leave them behind

im not sure who said it but your looks sure can kill.

cell fish

BABY I'M A PIG

GOT MY NOSE IN SHIT

GOT THE LOOKS

GOT THE CHARM

BUT YOU'LL HATE THE SMELL OF IT

why. owe. you.

You are a white hot flash of a bullet wound to my chest. The light reflecting off your face, the simple movement of your mouth.

You send a nonstop stream of pure everything.

i actually remember writing this one

It smells like a flower cut from ash and the music is way to loud.

This room is a mess.

The cat has a bad idea.

Kill the night and ill grab the knife

to cut the night

to bathe the room in rays of light.

...

Spit tastes like medicine

what I am is a mirrors grin

Lay it out on a cool tile floor.

don't flatter yourself

She is in love with the idea of being in love with you.

"A nice young man"

Its not you, its not the life you lead. Its the conception of a positive image of her life.

You are not shit, you are John Doe a faceless bandage to sew an age old wound.

Im not the cure

Im a memory

a face in the crowd

I'm a chewing gum plug to a pin hole leak in a shaky wooden dam.

mantra

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For GOD and COUNTRY(music)

You fortunate sons
unwanted bastard ones.
With close cut fades you'll take the hit and stash it away.
Fold up the flag and mail it home
a back hand scar
shapeshifting shining star.



















































(if you dont do what we tell you, we will send you to your mothers house in a large black plastic bag.)

tired of the angst yet?

Did you wake up to a doorbell ring?
Do you hear what the black cloud sings?
I can't feel a fucking thing.
I don't feel anything.

I'll address this one to myself.......

Do you remember the nose bleeds and rubbing alcohol dreams?
Trying to stay awake so we could give and take pieces of our skin, to touch the fire, to begin again.
Melt the rubber soul, inhale deep, pray to god that we never meet.

L.I.A.W.I.A.R.D.W.F.C.A.L.S

Luck
is
a
woman
in
a
red
dress
with
fingers
crossed
and
legs
spread.

Piss stains

Plenty of places to sit but nowhere to rest (fuck it).
A quiet porcelain embrace.
Walls that sweat.
A quick fix, a strange face. Alone enough to crave an embrace, but to surrounded to single you out.
An empty seat in a crowded room.
This house can keep a secret, just long enough to cut a wound.

Like father? Like son?

"Just be a man." she said
"Just do the best you can." she said
Well then don't expect a thing because when it comes down to who is who, I'm not me and you're not you.
So take another drag and embrace the cold but don't turn to me when this gets old.

LOVE(makes me)SICK

Im making love to my memories just to feel a bit of anything
Im fucking myself up again just to see inside my head
I aint got the time to tell you baby, whats going on inside my mind
If I dont make it out of this, dont worry girl because I needed it.
Im losing my mind.
Im out of my head.
I've gotten way to used to, living like im dead.

shocking news

Cut the power to my brain
Stop the signals kill the pain
Gun to my head, knife in my back
Hands are shaking cant relax
Self induced heart attack

sole searching

i cant stop walking
away from something blindly into nothing.
i wake up every morning from a sleepless night cursing the alarm that peeled my eyes apart
i cant brush this sour taste out
i cant wash these stains off
ill walk 5 miles out of my way, just hoping that someone would see me
prove that i exist
a shower and a shave
a wink and a smile
its the wool i sew onto their eyelids
if you only knew

writing letters to no one

And hoping for a response.